productive!!

Hello!

I am feeling very happy today because I was so very productive! Srsly, if I can study like I did today, prelims and A levels are going to be a breeze! (touchwood). Actually, I think it has got to do with the environment I was studying in. Today, I had decided to go to sch to study! 

Anyway, I reached sch at around 8.20am and I wanted to go study at the sch library. But the library was still closed -.- So I decided to go down to the canteen to study. I thought I was quite early but there were already a few people studying in the canteen. I was supposed to study with my friend, who came around 10am. 

After lunch we decided to move to a windier area because the canteen was getting too warm. OMG, the place was so windy that at one point, all my notes just flew off the table!!! It was actually really funny lolz. 

Also, our school was having MUN today and there was catering for the delegates. My friend and I managed to get some leftover food after the delegates were done with it! We were such scavengers lol. But the food was really good!!!

I think I was really productive today because my sch is really a very conducive place to study. And also, I had company who was studying with me! It helped that my friend was also very studious because that gave me more pressure to be studious :) I'd managed to finish what I had set out to finish today! 

I'm meeting my friend again tomorrow. Hopefully, it will be as productive as today!  

creatures of habit

Hello all!

Can't believe I have already broken my promise of updating everyday for the entire month of June. To make up for it, I shall post twice today! Alright, time to update on my progress in turning into a mugger.

So far, it has been a tiny success.

I got of on a rocky start. I woke up at 8.30am yesterdau when I was supposed to have woken up at 7am to go for a morning walk. Anyway, I started studying at 9.30am and it was actually kind of productive. I managed to finally annotate my econs and history notes! And I also did some math and realised I have already forgotten all my formulae -.- So, at 1pm, when I had lunch, I decided to go to the library. I was meeting my friend to go watch a movie at 4pm and since the cinema was near the library, I decided to head to the library first so it won't be such a hassle to go to cinema later.

Never go to the library at 2pm, because all the tables would've been taken up and you would've no table to do your work :( That's what happened to me, haish. I had to sit on the many armchairs provided and do my work on my lap. I had actually planned to do ELL and math in the library but I after finishing ell, I'd realised that I didn't really feel like doing math and decided to go borrow a book instead haha.

Later, I went to watch the movie with my friend. It was Pitch-perfect 2! I thought the movie was ok. I didn't totally love it like I did with Pitch-Perfect. I had planned to study more after coming back from watching the movie but I gave up and just messed around at home. In all, only the morning was productive.

Today was even worse. I did absolutely nothing at all. Zip. Nada. Zilch. I woke up late again at 9.30am and I was planning to starting studying at 10.30am. So, while eating breakfast, I started reading the book I borrowed from the library yesterday and I was so engrossed that I didn't stop reading even when it was 10.30am TT.TT (clearly, I have self-control issues). After I finished reading the book, I really didn't feel like studying so I messed around with my phone and my computer haishhhhhh. And now, I am writing this.

As you can see, getting into the habit of studying is a serious work in progress and I really need to work on getting up on time. I am someone who needs clearly structured plans so that I can get down and be productive. So, I really need to plan out the rest of my days and stick to it like superglue.

update lolz

Hey!

It's been a long time since I've updated this blog and that's because I've been procrastinating and being a little shit in general haha. I've decided to update the blog everyday of this month because I am more free as of now (even though I am supposed to be studying oops).

Anyway, now that I am a J2, I think it's time for me to up my game and take responsibility over my life. I can no longer ignore my studies like I have been doing for the past 5 months (I've been very busy with basketball and season). Now I really need to focus on my studying. Actually, I think it's kind of hard to buckle down and study because the last time I've taken a national exam was when I was in P6 HAHA. I kind of forgot the kind of pressure that comes with sitting for a national exam.

I already have a vague idea of all the topics and content that I need to study and I even went out to buy a huge magnetic planner today (that's how serious I am). So, right now, I need to actually write down what I want to study for the next 4 weeks so that I will procrastinate!!

Another problem is that so many awesome movies are coming the next months and I really want to watch all of them!!! But A levels take priority TT.TT I am really hoping that I can get all As for A levels. I didn't do that well for PW or for my MT, so I need to buck up for the rest of my subjects haish.

I also have a reading list that I also want to finish by this week but I don't know if its possible. I think I only finished reading 3 books out of the 50 books there are on my reading list TT.TT

I'd just have to believe that everything is going to be alright and that I can accomplish all that I want to accomplish.

After a looong whileee

Hello people of the internet!

Yes, I know, the last post dated back to January 2013. It has been more than a year since I've last updated. I think 2013 was just not a good year for me. My motivation to do anything was at an all-time low and I barely accomplished anything. But, this year! Everything is going to change! I've finally graduated from secondary school and am now entering a new phase in my life: Junior College. It is going to be an entirely clean slate for me....actually, not so much a clean slate since I'm in an IP school but you get the idea.

Before, I get all gung-ho about what I am going to accomplish in 2014, I would just like to reflect back on my secondary school years (cue nostalgic music). It really seemed like a short time ago that I'd just entered secondary school and was egg-cited that I was finally going to be a teenager (OMGZ, I AM 13!!!!1!!) and thought that I was all mature and stuff. Back then, I did so many things that I thought seemed mature but in actuality, was pretty stupid and immature. But then, I also thought about how 4 years was such a long time and wanted to do so many things in secondary school.

I was so lucky to get into an IP school that gave us so many opportunities to accomplish so much and yet, I only did the bare minimum; I did not even exert myself in the least bit. Even so, I still feel very grateful that the school still gave me an opportunity to truly have a holistic education. I also feel blessed that I had such amazing seniors and juniors and made such great friends whom I know will always have my back no matter what. In short, I am very very grateful that I was accepted into such a great school and regretful that I did not maximise my opportunities to accomplish anything.

And just like that, 4 years flew by and I am going to be starting JC soon. I had the chance to find out if I was really made for the Sciences and failed the compatibility test and so, have decided to take Humanities in JC. I felt such a sense of release when I received my subject combination and saw that I'll be doing Humanities. No more struggling over the Sciences! I can finally concentrate on what I truly love.

Actually, it has come as quite a surprise that I've decided to continue on with my CCA in JC. Back in July, when I finally stopped, I told myself that I had enough of Basketball and that I am not going to continue. I did not even go for holiday trainings. But here I am, still going for trainings even when nearly the rest of my batch decided to drop the CCA. I am not exactly sure why I am continuing with the CCA, but with every training I go for, I can feel the rekindling of a passion that had been dissipating over 4 years. Trainings are actually tougher, but I feel I should stick it out to the end :)

Anyway, I've come up with a list of goals to accomplish in 2014, here goes:

1. Cut down time spent on the Net (still unsuccessful)
2. WRITE MOAR
3. Give my all in bball
4. Study like there's no tomorrow
5. Update regularly ;)

Okay that's all.

kthxbai :D

3 weeks in...

Helllooo~~

It has been 3 weeks since the year has started. And I just wanted to say how time seems to be passing so slowly... Honestly, the hours in a day fly by and yet the days are crawling like a baby taking its first steps. Thought 2013 can be likened to that. At least for me. The time has come again where I am the oldest in the school. The responsibilities were as much the same as they were when I was in P6. Just much heavier since I am older. I was 12 then. Young and naive. Now I am going to be 16...It is really time for me to start being more mature.

2013 has been okay-ish so far. I have actually been sleeping really early. And I have been waking up much more refreshed and all. I think I should try to sleep early now since I am definitely going to be much busier as the year goes by and the study loads get heavier. It is eventually become a habit- a good habit at that!

However, I am still battling with the problem of getting easily distracted while I am on the computer. And I still have not really started doing my work yet. I still tell myself that I will do it tomorrow -.- I even bought a notebook to write in all my notes and I have barely used that!

Again, the number one reason is that I am too caught up with training. I feel so tired after training these days. And our competition has already started. My stamina really dropped since the December holidays... I usually don't feel that tired after training.

Oh god! Training is another headache altogether! I keep feeling as if I am not giving my best; giving my all. On some days, I'd find myself thinking about how many months there are left until I don't have to train anymore. I should not be thinking like that. Such a negative outlook on trainings.

I think I have to psych myself more. And I need to put in more effort for my stamina. It is already my last year of playing, I need to give it all I've got! We've already played two matches so far. And our last match for our qualifying round into the semi-finals is the most important one of them all. And I need to be a player whom my coach can trust to put down on court and help the team score points.

My coach have told me countless times that I have the skills. It is just that I do not want to put in the effort she knows I can give. I think I agree with her. I do not know why I am so weak-minded as to easily give up when I am tired. The other players are tired too! What makes me so special?

I think that when I get tired, I get discouraged and I don't want to put in the effort of defending harder. And then, my playing becomes sloppy and weak. This should not be the behaviour of someone who has 5 years of experience behind her!! (Note my double exclamation marks)

Henceforth, from today onwards, I promise to give it my all for all my trainings and my games. I have never lasted one entire quarter before. I need to be able to do that for my games. I MUST PERSEVERE ON! 

Last Recollections and New Beginnings

Hey Y'all!

HAPPY FREAKING NEW YEAR! WE SURVIVED THE APOCALYPSE!

My title sounds so cheem, right! But honestly, those are the only words to describe what I'm about to talk about in this post. Hey, it's 1st January, everybody will think about the past year on this date, every year. And I am no different. I'll start off by recollecting the past year, what I did; good and bad, and what I wished I did etc.

Anyways, I felt that last year, I have let myself down really badly. I mean, I'm already 15 and halfway through completing my secondary education, and yet I've failed to meet expectations. My parents', my teachers', my coaches, and especially me.

I have failed to make any significant impression be it with my trainings or my studies. I keep telling myself that I'll try harder the next time round, I'll do better next time, and yet, that next time never comes. I'm always stuck on the same level. I hardly ever get out of my comfort zone at all. And the minimal times that I do, I go back to my comfort zone.

This really frustrates me because I told myself last year that I will improve; I will do this and that. Heck, I even made a detailed plan in one of my many notebooks. All gone to waste, all for nought. I do not want the same thing to happen again. I really really really REALLY want to make a very big improvement in everything I do. I want to myself to persevere in anything that I choose to do. Whether it be in studying or in trainings. I NEED to make myself endure. To keep myself focused on the goal ahead of me and not get distracted by other things.

And since that is out of the way, I am ready to restructure and plan my future goals. And I making the skeleton right now this instant. I'll be slowly adding the flesh as the year go by.

Goal # 1: My studies

I will try my utmost best to listen in class and to always take down notes so that I can revise later on. I should get a thick notebook for taking down general notes. And I must make it a habit of always taking down notes. I hardly ever made notes and it nearly cost me in the exams. So I must take down notes when the school year begins. I have especially disappointed my mother this year with my bad attitude towards studying and I should amend that immediately.

I should revise whatever the teachers have taught me as and when as possible so as to keep my memory fresh on everything that I have learnt and I can do that by sleeping early so that I'm not sleep-deprived the next day and thus, unable to concentrate. I should revise everything that I have learnt that day when I return home from school and revise what I was taught the entire week in the weekends.

On the topic of revising, I should complete the work given to me on time and not leave until the next day. That is a very bad habit I have acquired since coming to secondary school as the teachers hardly ever check our work (they just go through it in class; saves them a lot of time). I must emulate the behaviour of my other friends who consistently complete their work.

That's about it for my studies :))

Goal # 2: Trainings

This section might be pretty short, seeing as it is my last year. Being Sec 4, our trainings are pretty much over once competition has finished. Being in 'B' division, competitions will finish in around mid-April. But, until then, I want to put in my utmost best for all my trainings until then.

It seems that I have remained at the same standard as I was in Sec 1. I honestly want to improve. I have been playing the same sport since I was 10. And I might not continue playing after Secondary school. So, I need to give it my best this year.

It might help that I also improve my fitness outside of trainings. We train 3 times a week, but I still need to improve on my fitness. I need run more often. Probably on weekends or something.

Goal # 3: Health

Ugh, last year was horrible. I kept sleeping so late and I ate everything in sight. I should really control my computer urges and quit it when it is time to sleep. I am going to have alot of problems when I get older because of my stupid sleeping habits. Heck, I think I have become a little insomniac because of that.

I should sleep at 11pm every night unless I have some major work to do. And I should stop eating everything in sight. I really need to lose some weight...even my mother thinks so. I have literally become a shapeless blob. Clothes don't look nice on me anymore.

Goal # 4: Life In General

I should take life as it is. Surprises and all. Enjoy every minute of it and also take control of it. :) 

Awayy

Hello guys!

It's been a month since I last posted. It was mainly because I was busy with NaNoWriMo. This year, I decided to participate in NaNoWriMo after not doing so well in my written essay for my English exam. I wanted to see if I really lost my touch at writing. Though I did not manage to write the required 50k words because I also had training in school and I'll usually be tired for a few hours when I get home.

But I do feel a bit accomplished. My previous attempts at writing stories had either died a horrible death or had been abandoned in the Gobi Desert. I had never wrote as much as I did for NaNoWriMo. And I don't think the story is going to end anytime soon. Actually, part of the reason why I could not complete the story because I had a mindblock (or writer's block) and could not see how the story should continue from there. I am still experiencing writer's block TT.TT

That's all the month of November consisted of. Besides going for trainings and the occasional movie. Like I said before, I watched Pitch-Perfect! A really good movie to watch despite it being a chick-flick.

And I also watched Rise of The Guardians! Twice! Once with my CCA and another time with my friend. Achievement Unlocked: watching the same movie twice x) So, now I have 2 ticket stubs for the movie. The first time I went to watch at Suntec City. The other time I went to watch at JCUBE.

The movie was really good. Basically it was about the guardians: Santa Claus, Sandman, Easter Bunny and Tooth Fairy getting together to defeat Pitch-Black (aka, the bogeyman). Jack Frost was chosen as a new guardian, though he doesn't want to be one. Pitch-Black wanted to be believed in because nobody believes in him anymore. The only way he can do that is to get the children of the world to stop believing in the guardians ( they are only alive so long as children believe in them).

I think that's enough summary :) Or was that too little? Watch it if you want to find out what happens in the end x) I think the cool thing about the movie was that all the guardians was chosen by the Man in the Moon. Really makes you wonder about the fairy tales you heard as a kid.

Life of Pi is finally out!! I so badly want to watch it!! Maybe I can convince my dad to let me watch it....Haish, my friend and I were planning to watch it but she's overseas now :( I don't know when she'll be back. And I just realised that Hotel Transylvania is going to be released on the 6th December and I am flying off on the 5th! Arghhh. What a dilemma...

Haish, I need to go pack my stuff now. I'll update tomorrow :)